Take This Job……You Know The Rest

If you know me even the least little bit, you know that I, hate, despise,abhor, am not happy with my job at the moment. To the point where it’s really affecting everything else in my life. I love the babies that I take care of, I really do. I’m just tired of taking care of other people’s kids. And also tired of being taken advantage of. Those two combined are making me quite the grumpy bitch lately.

The problem is, where to go from here. I live in a tiny town. It’s not teeming with job opportunities. I also live rent free, and close to my mom, who helps me with my girls, so I don’t see myself moving anytime soon. I have a couple of nibbles on some work from home opportunities. But I would need to supplement these with just a couple more paying jobs to make the income that I need.

This morning I looked at my key chain.

I bought this a few months ago to remind myself. I get caught up in the day to day and think, I can do this, I can make this work until I finish school. But now? I’m not sure I can.

Am I living my dream? To an extent, yes. I am raising two beautiful, intelligent, and funny girls. That’s PART of the dream. Now, it’s time for something for me. And to stop going to a job every day that pays the bills, but I have to bend over backwards to make that happen. Stupid hours, no real schedule.

But the other part of my dream? It would preferably be writing something, assisting someone who writes, assisting someone on an e-marketing campaign (putting school to use), or something of the sort. Something flexible enough where I can take 30 minutes to pick my kids up from school and then take the time to get them where they need to be, practices, etc. I’m sure you all know of the perfect job just sitting out there waiting for me, right? RIGHT? I knew it!

So, right now, I’m sitting on a fence. Do I wait to find something? Do I go ahead and quit and put my faith in the fact that something will turn up before I run out of money? I AM the sole provider after all.

Someone shake your Magic 8 Ball and tell me what it says.

I’ll be waiting for your answer.